Saturday, January 31, 2015

You are a dirty glass



The truth is water poured into your glass, and mixes with all your muck. Then you go and tell your family and say “here  have a drink!” and you wonder why they say “ughh yuk”.
The purpose if spiritual work is to stir up the sludge so you can filter the water and give others a drink.
Unfortunately, some of us have made our spirituality an ego experience. We feel good as the muck loosens from our soul but hang onto it, as if it is “we” who are doing the work. As if “being good” is a trade off, from seeing ourselves. We feel  good for bringing the muck to the surface, while our family still only see the mud.  As Gandhi said of some Christians, they worry so much about sin , they become great sinners.
Spiritual work helps us make distinctions between truth hand illusion. What upsets us reveals what illusions we value. All our impulses are ego trying to get back in.
Life offers us a crisis, which we seek to negotiate, and eventually we realise the ego doesn't know but tricks us with stories we tell ourselves that life should be. When eventually we let go to life, and  trust, we experience an epiphany we feel we have touched the face of God. For months, maybe ears, years we feel we are spiritual, we feel we are blessed, that we are “God’s spoiled brat”, but we are still in our ego. 

This is where some spiritual types stay stuck in spiritual pride.  Then suddenly life collapses again. We face our dark night of the soul. The shadows that haunted us return, but on a deeper and higher level. It seems we have lost even God. It seems that every day we need ask “What attachments do I need let go in my life?”

The ego drives the millions of micro decisions we make in unconscious guilt. Ever upset is unconscious guilt we have not released and keeps us from peace. When finally we realise that Spirit is in charge “there is no ego to decide there is anything but love”.


If ever that was possible, the glass would clean, and maybe even the glass would dissolve as flow in the river of life.

Tuesday, January 27, 2015

Blacktracker...Blackwriter....Blacksubject

Blacktracker...Blackwriter....Blacksubject


Sometimes, when  pick up a pen, I’m the blacktracker following an ink-trail across a page of country, to find lost and wayward words. And then sometimes, when the grasp of the pen is very good, I’m the blackwriter , the blackwriter who can sense the resentment of other blacksubjectswho have been denied the Queens diction. With or without the pen though, I’m always the blacksubject, the blacksubject  scouting out uponan endless trail of the Queen’s death-notes. Propoganda and poison ink: the medicine the Queens children now use to edit blacksubjects. Occasionally, I’m the blacksubject, blackwriter and blacktracker, and we all ride out together. The Queen pas the blacktracker for some of my dirty work, the blackwriter feels my Dreaming to the Queens tongue, and then blacksubjects don’t come come to my poetry readings, thus I pay for my words. Alienated only as the blacksubject. But with or without the pen, it’s the blacksubject who will inherit the earth. Because at the end of the day, the blacksubject can’t be seduced like the blackwriter, ‘cause the blacksubject will always know ... it’s with the pen that the lies are used to overwrite the Dreaming, and the written word will never be worth the country it’s written on.

-         -  Samuel Wagan Watson 

Wednesday, January 21, 2015

There no place like .............?



“We are one, we are many, from al the world we come”
-          Bruce Woodley.

Australia is no longer a 19th century patriarchal domicile behind a 1950’s picket fence. The perfect family is mythical and so are our tangled imaginings of our national home.  We all yearn for a place to call home, but home is in our imagination. As imaginary as the bush hero our coast fringed, urban Aussies will never be.
Home is not just a place of heat and rest. Home has always being our source of deepest conflict and transformation. We imagine its peace but are triggered by its shadows.
Australia is a land of immigrants, exiles and the diaspora. Add to this challenge gays and feminists ask of our domicile and  home is not so clearly defined. Nor is the identity of the homeland.
The post 9/11 fear mongering inspired the call for Australian Values. But what are they? “You don’t kick a dog when it’s down” was what was an Aussie truth I was bought up to believe. Post Tony Abbot we add “unless you’re a refugee.” 
Fear can turn an accommodating people into a mob demanding conformity. This spasm of concern is pimped by politicians with an eros of nationalistic passion. Where three word slogans confuse  the common good with vote grabbing.
I am a patriot of informed choice, and considered decisions. I am a patriot for open debate for  the long term good of all: Not flag waving Australia Day drunk who cheat the law a week later. I do not believe in a reality built on prejudices, slogans and misconceptions. I do not bow to a mandate that squelches debate.
A true patriot examines the nature of country to find the common good. A true patriot supports his community: we should never under estimate the unique potential of each individuals gifts to flower in the light of encouragement.  A true patriot also seeks to peacefully change what is against community long term benefit.
Non violent resistance and protest of injustice are therefore a patriotic act.
But now challenge the media norm and expect a backlash. I understand many fear a loss of community. We seem increasingly like globalised tourists, and vagabonds, homogenised by globalisation.
You may be born here from parents of brown skin of a foreign religion, and never feel at home at home in this land of your birth. The inflated threat of migrant terrorists has made citizenship increasingly precarious. Disagree and you expect to be told “Go home.”  I am a 6th generation Australian born of British descent and yet I have been told to “go back to India”. Why? Because I objected to a father allowing his children throwing stones on a train.
I realise we sentimentally over value some socially imagined common understanding of what we should practice as if that legitimises our shared Australiana. But other than rejecting terrorism, what does that mean?
Social exclusion can also be about how you see yourself; especially if you feel excluded by skin colour, religion or family traditions.
Of course, all nations have shadows that haunt: Aboriginee, woman and immigrants are subtly excluded here.
We hunt refugees and Aboriginee from our awareness like dingoes scattered to the desert. Off the TV screen is out of sight and out of mind. We don’t want to look beyond the Anzac legend, but we are not  White Australia.
The other side is stereotype: a faulty stereotype destroyed for me when I first moved to India. I attended a party where one girl was clearly a Muslim. Most were dressed in curvy but modest clothes.  Only later, did I realise that 60% of all the girls present followed Islam.
Repeatedly I found most Muslims did not stand out at all.  We see first those dressed differently – and I bless their uniqueness – then so wrongly label a whole community by that perception. Unfortunately, identity politics solidifies communities within narrow imagined boundaries. It ignores the shared good and finds instead fearful shadows.  
I am a devotee of the god of small kindnesses; a sannyasin to generosity across the picnic rug. I am a pilgrim to the community hall of challah and falafel, of roti and dim sum embraced in the shared gift of every heritage.  I honour the sleeping black babe wrapped to a mothers back, and the fruity sip of ouzo at the taverna.
Few of us thrive on our own power. It is the church, or the ashram – in  the power of community – that were are inspired to find our gifts and offer them. Alone we sink into our own selfish shadows.
But the boundary posts are shifting. Australians are no longer British on holidays. The nuclear family will no longer model the modern nation state.  
We need a new language. We need a new vocabulary broad enough to embrace our new extended family of migrants, exiles and diaspora. Our anthem should be opportunity, and our invocation the responsibility to share our gifts for the greater good of all.

   



Tuesday, January 6, 2015

Aphorisms on Nature


Aphorisms on Nature

Johann Wolfgang von Goethe (1749-1832)


Nature! We are surrounded by her and locked in her clasp: powerless to leave her, and powerless to come closer to her. Unasked and unwarned she takes us up into the whirl of her dance, and hurries on with us till we are weary and fall from her arms.
She creates new forms without end: what exists now, never was before; what was, comes not again; all is new and yet always the old.
We live in the midst of her and are strangers. She speaks to us unceasingly and betrays not her secret. We are always influencing her and yet can do her no violence.
Individuality seems to be all her aim, and she cares nought for individuals. She is always building and always destroying, and her workshop is not to be approached.
Nature lives in her children only, and the mother, where is she? She is the sole artist,—out of the simplest materials the greatest diversity; attaining, with no trace of effort, the finest perfection, the closest precision, always softly veiled. Each of her works has an essence of its own; every shape that she takes is in idea utterly isolated; and yet all forms one.
She plays a drama; whether she sees it herself, we know not; and yet she plays it for us, who stand but a little way off.
There is constant life in her, motion and development; and yet she remains where she was. She is eternally changing, nor for a moment does she stand still. Of rest she knows nothing, and to all stagnation she has affixed her curse. She is steadfast; her step is measured, her exceptions rare, her laws immutable.
She has thought, and she ponders unceasingly; not as a man, but as Nature. The meaning of the whole she keeps to herself, and no one can learn it of her.
Men are all in her, and she in all men. With all she plays a friendly game, and rejoices the more a man wins from her. With many her game is so secret, that she brings it to an end before they are aware of it.
Even what is most unnatural is Nature; even the coarsest Philistinism has something of her genius. Who does not see her everywhere, sees her nowhere aright.
She loves herself, and clings eternally to herself with eyes and hearts innumerable. She has divided herself that she may be her own delight. She is ever making new creatures spring up to delight in her, and imparts herself insatiably.
She rejoices in illusion. If a man destroys this in himself and others, she punishes him like the hardest tyrant. If he follows her in confidence, she presses him to her heart as it were her child.
Her children are numberless. To no one of them is she altogether niggardly; but she has her favourites, on whom she lavishes much, and for whom she makes many a sacrifice. Over the great she has spread the shield of her protection.
She spurts forth her creatures out of nothing, and tells them not whence they come and whither they go. They have only to go their way: she knows the path.
Her springs of action are few, but they never wear out: they are always working, always manifold.
The drama she plays is always new, because she is always bringing new spectators. Life is her fairest invention, and Death is her device for having life in abundance.
She envelops man in darkness, and urges him constantly to the light. She makes him dependent on the earth, heavy and sluggish, and always rouses him up afresh.
She creates wants, because she loves movement. How marvellous that she gains it all so easily! Every want is a benefit, soon satisfied, soon growing again. If she gives more, it is a new source of desire; but the balance quickly rights itself.
Every moment she starts on the longest journeys, and every moment reaches her goal.
She amuses herself with a vain show; but to us her play is all-important.
She lets every child work at her, every fool judge of her, and thousands pass her by and see nothing; and she has her joy in them all, and in them all finds her account.
Man obeys her laws even in opposing them: he works with her even when he wants to work against her.
Everything she gives is found to be good, for first of all she makes it indispensable. She lingers, that we may long for presence; she hurries by, that we may not grow weary of her.
Speech or language she has none; but she creates tongues and hearts through which she feels and speaks.
Her crown is Love. Only through Love can we come near her. She puts gulfs between all things, and all things strive to be interfused. She isolates everything, that she may draw everything together. With a few draughts from the cup of Love she repays for a life full of trouble.
She is all things. She rewards herself and punishes herself; and in herself rejoices and is distressed. She is rough and gentle, loving and terrible, powerless and almighty. In her everything is always present. Past or Future she knows not. The Present is her Eternity. She is kind. I praise her with all her works. She is wise and still. No one can force her to explain herself, or frighten her into a gift that she does not give willingly. She is crafty, but for a good end; and it is best not to notice her cunning.
She is whole and yet never finished. As she works now, so can she work for ever.
To every one she appears in a form of his own. She hides herself in a thousand names and terms, and is always the same.
She has placed me in this world; she will also lead me out of it. I trust myself to her. She may do with me as she pleases. She will not hate her work. I did not speak of her. No! what is true and what is false, she has spoken it all. Everything is her fault, everything is her merit.

Monday, January 5, 2015

Mantra for Migrants


Mantra for Migrants

Always becoming, will never be
Always arriving, must never land



Between back home unfathomable, is me 

– By definition: immigrant



I’ll always be oh glorious

Glorious unchangeable



In truth, I am in flux

Immigrant I will forever be



Migrant oh yes, oh migrant me

Migrant immutable amazing unchangeable



Always becoming, will never be

Always arriving, must never land


I pledge citizenship, unerring
Loyalty, to this State of Migrancy


- Shani Mootoo The Predicament of Or